Justine's Ramblings

To all my friends: Reminding you that I have gotten a new LJ...

2007-04-07T20:38:01Z

Just a reminder for everyone that this journal will no longer be in use.

Please friend my new journal awesomecat and delete this one from your f-list if you wish.

Thank you.

NEW JOURNAL. THIS ONE IS DEAD AND WILL SOON BE BURIED!

2007-03-13T02:46:46Z

Aight, yo.

little_serpent IS DEAD.

awesomecat is my new journal and girlantagonist is going to go to other use... just not sure what yet.

Why change accounts AGAIN?

Well, I'm not a little serpent. I am a fat cat. I have always been a kitty so that's the way it's going to be.

I haven't decided yet whether or not I am going to purge and delete little_serpent yet. I may save a few memorable entries and purge the rest.

Once again... why?

I feel like it. Time for a change. *shrug*

So Beautiful...

2007-03-11T10:15:22Z

~~~So Beautiful by Darren Hayes~~~

Whether I'm right or wrong
There's no phrase that hits
Like an ocean needs the sand
Or a dirty old shoe that fits
And if all the world was perfect
I would only ever want to see your scars
You know they can have their universe
We'll be in the dirt designing stars

And darlin' you know
You make me feel so beautiful
Nowhere else in the world I wanna be
You make me feel so beautiful

Whether I'm up or down
There's no crowd to please
I'm like a faith without a clause
to believe in it
And if all the world was smiling
I would only ever want to see your frown
You know they can sail away in sunsets
We'll be right here stranded on the ground
Just happy to be found

You make me feel so beautiful
Nowhere else in the world I wanna be
You make me feel so beautiful

I have lost my illusions
I have drowned in your words
I have left my confusion to a cynical world
I am throwing myself at things I don't understand
Discover enlightenment holding your hand

You are...
So beautiful

Yeah darlin' you know
That you make me feel so beautiful!
Nowhere else in the world I wanna be
Yeah you make me feel so beautiful!

Yeah darlin' you know
That you make me feel so beautiful
Yeah darlin' you know
That you make me feel so beautiful.

Stupid-as-fuck dream....

2007-02-27T18:54:01Z

I had this really stupid dream last night.

I found an apartment that was really large and really nice and partially furnished for only $200/month, all utilities paid. Too good to be true, right? The catch? It was in an apartment building and the wall that divides the room from the main hallway was glass... anyone could just look in and see everything in the apartment.... part of the bathroom was closed off for privacy but the large bathtub was right in the middle of the livingroom. There was also a large curtain I could close to hide the apartment from the hallway and that was it.... so for some reason I accept this offer and start living in this half-glass apartment.

At one point I decide to take a bath so I close the curtain and draw a bath which instantly despenses some honey scented bath oil and bubble bath into the large tub. So I am thinking "hmm... well this is still pretty sweet. I'll close the curtain for now and later I will just entirely cover the glass wall with posters and stuff so it wont be any different then any other regular wall." Then I realise that the curtain doesnt close all the way, it leaves about a foot open at one end so I tack up a blanket to block it off and go to take a bath...

About five minutes into my relaxing bath I hear someone banging on the door. So I get up, put on my bathrobe and answer it. It's the apartment building's manager, the landlord, who looks almost exactly like Danny Davito. He hands me a piece of paper, which just happens to be a bill for $75... for my bath. So I'm like "okay... what the fuck. A bath? what if I just want a regular bath? not one with all the bubbles and scented bath oils?" and the landlord goes "What about it? You still have to pay."

At this point I am really pissed. I get charged to take a bath? I argue with him for a while and he finally dismissed the fee for this bath because I wasnt told in advance that BATHING WOULD COST ME HUGE AMOUNTS OF MONEY. I'm really pissed that I can't take baths anymore and have to stick with showers. I finish my bath and go to bed.

The next morning I wake up and start covering my glass wall with pictures and such only to have the landlord come banging on my door and telling me that he will have to charge me $10 per sqare foot per MONTH for covering the glass wall. Now i am ten times more pissed then the previous night and take what I had hung up down and go to work. When I get back from work I decide to go take a shower. A SHOWER.... and, you guessed it, landlord tries charging me $75 for a regular shower. At this point I slam the door in his face and start packing up everything. There is no fucking way I am living there.

Landlord calls for a security guard to come up and the guard just happens to be Hurley from Lost.

I announce that I am moving out and that the landlord can kiss my ass. I have been living there for two days and this is bullshit.

Suddenly my stupid parents are there, harassing me because I somehow managed to build up $500 in fees in less then two days.

Then I woke up. It was really fucking dumb.

The Best Thing...

2007-02-04T06:01:55Z

~~~The Best Thing... by Savage Garden~~~

Never want to fly
Never want to leave
Never want to say what you mean to me
Never want to run
Frightened to believe
You're the best thing about me

Sometimes I feel like this is only chemistry
Stuck in a maze searching for a way to
Shut down turn around feel the ground beneath me
You're so close where do you end where do I begin?
Always pushing and pulling
Sometimes sanity takes vacation time on me
I'm in a daze stumbling bewildered
North of gravity head up in the stratosphere
You and I roller coaster riding love
You're the center of adrenaline
And I'm beginning to understand

Never want to fly
Never want to leave
Never want to say what you mean to me
Never want to run
Frightened to believe
You're the best thing about me

Walk on broken glass make my way through fire
These are the things I would do for love
Farewell peace of mind kiss goodbye to reason
Up is down the impossible occurs each day
This intoxication thrills me
I only pray it doesn't kill me

Never want to fly
Never want to leave
Never want to say what you mean to me
Never want to run
Frightened to believe
You're the best thing about me

You're the center of adrenaline
And I'm beginning to understand
You could be the best thing about me

Never want to fly
Never want to leave
Never want to say what you mean to me
Never want to run
Frightened to believe
You're the best thing about me

You could be the best thing about me
What if you're the best thing about me?

Funny memory...

2007-01-24T06:36:30Z

Whee I'm totally being an LJ whore these last few days.

Funny memory...

When I was really little (like barely old enough to walk) my grandmother and grandfather and I would always go to Santa Rosa every other saturday. Every single time we went I got carsick and would throw up..... Every time without fail. I mean it was only a 2 and a half hour drive.

However, I remember that on my first real road trip (to La Grande, OR) about a week before I turned two years old... It was probably an eleven or twelve hour drive. I rode through the whole thing without sleeping or getting carsick... and made my parents pull over every hour or single time I saw a herd of reindeer, which ever came first.... (it was winter, the reindeer were EVERYWHERE... actually I think they were whitetails...)

Why did I always get carsick on a 2.5 hour car ride to Santa Rosa?

Because, as a two year old, I figured that the breakfast of champions was obviously an entire box of dark chocolate fudgesicles or orange creamsicles.

Two strange incidents from my childhood that still bother me.....

2007-01-22T07:24:13Z

I was looking at an old SA thread about strange childhood memories... it was mostly just people posting about strange occurences that happened when they were kids or memories that they remember in great detail but everyone else claims it never happened.

Well I have two in particular that have bothered the hell out of me for YEARS. Just click the cuts.

I have an entire weekend missing from my childhood. I was staying at my cousin's house for a week or so. They lived out in the middle of nowhere and had a large farm-like land with horses, cows, sheep and stuff. I would always go out and pet the horses and run from the evil geese... Well one day I am out petting the horses and I walk over to a lamb and start petting it. THen I see a sheep. Then I woke up in bed, covered in bruises, cuts and scuffs and the mother of all headaches.
I got up and asked my Aunt what happened.

Me: Sherill? What happened?

Sherill: Would you stop asking me that! You came to the gate!

I had no idea what she mean't by that. So I went and asked my older cousins.

Me: Robert, what happened?

Robert: You came to the gate and I got you a band aide and some ice.

I asked my other cousin and she said the same thing. I looked at the calender and it had been three days since the last thing I had remembered. I remembered walking outside on friday morning to see the horses and now it was Monday night. I asked my Aunt if my parents knew that I was knocked out. She didn't know what the hell I was talking about. She said that I had been walking around the house, watching cartoons, playing various video games, drawing and playing with the cats, like I normally would. I was confused as fuck!

My cousin then told me that I probably hit my head (thank you, Captain Obvious, I had a huge fucking bruise on the side of my face!) but she didn't believe that I couldn't remember what happened. She said I was probably climbing the fence just like I was told not to. They believed me even less later that day when I said that I wanted to watch Sword in the Stone because I had started watching it several days before but never got to watch the whole thing because my Uncle wanted to watch tv. They thought that just because I had remembered what happened early in the week that I must know what happened over the last few days.

Well, it's been years since... probably about 10 or more and I still have no idea what the fuck happened. I have lost two days of memory and when I try to recall what happened there is nothing there. It's just blank. To this day I just assume that that stupid sheep ran into me and knocked me down or I fell and it stepped on me.

I remember in Kindergarden through 2nd grade I would go play alone on the playground during recess. There was a jungle gym far out in the middle of the field that I would play on that nobody else would. I remember going out there and some days it would be gone... if that was the case I would go and sit on the swings. The next day or a few days later it would be back again. This large jungle gym would just "go missing" at random. I never really thought anything of it. (Note that this was not a removable piece of equipment... it was cemented into the ground...)

Many, many years later when I went with my mother to pick up my sister from the same school I noticed it was gone. When I mentioned it to her teacher (who had been my teacher), asking if she knew why they removed it, she said that the school never, ever had playground equipment out in the field because they didn't want kids playing out that far away from the buildings and supervision.

So really now, WHAT THE FUCK did I do every recess for THREE years?

Does anyone else have strange memories? Or any stories of weird childhood shit?

This is soooooo me.

2007-01-07T17:44:07Z

This is sooooo me XD

I have someone special I would like you all to meet...

2006-12-26T08:30:01Z

I would like you all to meet the very lovely Persephone.

She's totally hot and she knows it. She be a fine, fine lady.

If you do it... I will kill you.

2006-12-15T05:02:16Z

If any of you see that piece of goŭshĭ known as "Eragon" I will kill you in the face. Lèsè!!!! That's all it is... go watch/read something GOOD AND ORIGINAL.

I hate it when I have these sort of dreams.

2006-12-09T13:51:43Z

I didn't sleep last night, it was too hot. But the night before I had two short, and shitty dreams.

First one: I got into a fight with my mom and called her a bitch. She retorted by picking up a bucket full of maggots and throwing them at me. Then I woke up.

Second dream: Garrett (adopted brother), Jorden (sister), my grandmum and I were all at the beach and there was something crawling around in the sand. Garrett dug it up and it was a maggot the size of a two year old brat and he ran after me with it then threw it at me landed at my feet where I was first afraid that it was going to explode when it landed.... even worse... it bounced and hit me in the leg then started wiggling toward me in the sand... then I woke up.

Yeah, I hate it when I get a string of dreams of this sort.

Anyway, time to go to work. Joy.

DREAM! What?! Inspired! Yes!

2006-11-30T23:28:45Z

So I had this dream last night but I don't remember much of it except for this one random scene...

Please excuse the horrible grammer and run-on sentences... I am rambling.

But what I remember most is there was some sort of a battle going on and there was this boy that was there and he got up and started walking through all the gunfire and blasts and explosions. One of the other people attacking just shot this boy and blew a chunk of his shoulder off and I remember seeing that he was bleeding AND there were strange wires and a metal plating exposed. This boy was half machine. He just continued to walk toward them and kept getting shot at. He got shot in the chest several times and he got shot in the arm again and this time it detached from his body. He was bleeding alot and there were electrical wires sparking at the end. He kept getting shot at and his flesh was getting ripped off. Finally at the end he was standing there, his insides and wiring half exposed. Half of his face was torn off to reveal a green sensor for his eye. The other half of his face was still covered with flesh and was bleeding from a large gash in his cheek and his good 'eye' shed a tear before he screamed and sent off some strange sort of blast like a small nuclear explosion destroying everything.

Yeah, it was really weird and awesome and I am inspired to write now.

always the buzzing...

2006-11-26T16:20:32Z

I have hardly slept for hella days. Everytime I am about to fall asleep I hear the McDonalds drivethrough buzzer... and if I do manage to fall asleep I'm not really asleep... I am standing there taking orders.... always taking orders.

Wah.

Dream: Ew. Ew. Ew.

2006-11-02T18:40:51Z

So I had a dream last night that someone locked me in a car and sent it rolling down a huge hill. It kept rolling and rolling until finally it rolled off a dock and into the ocean... only instead of water the ocean was full of maggots.

It really sucked.

Oh sweet christ...

2006-10-27T19:25:16Z

Watch as they stare into your soul.

No where to hide...

2006-10-21T07:33:58Z

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/15221095/

A Whole New World...

2006-10-20T19:42:06Z

Um... so how the hell did carpet take Aladdin and Jasmine from Agrabah to Egypt to CHINA in under five minutes?

little_serpent @ 2006-10-08T16:18:00

2006-10-08T18:31:46Z

I scored 66.66667% (Geek God) on The Geek Test

lol.

THERE IS NO SPOON.

2006-09-29T21:41:53Z

The spooooonn I use to eat puddddding is missing!!!!!1111111111 and so is the pudding I ate it with a fork.

Order of the Phoenix movie pics

2006-09-28T09:29:02Z

Also, pictures from Order of the Phoenix... I am not going to link to them all... but one in particular I must point out...

WHY HIS HARRY'S HAIR NICE AND NEAT?.... and Why on earth is Ginny wearing a boy's uniform?
http://www.mugglenet.com/gallery/albums/movies/ootp/stills/HP5D-2921.jpg

"Oh look, I better pay attention and drive now."

2006-09-22T20:04:06Z

Okay, I am really sick of these ridiculous dreams where I am in the front seat of a moving car, sitting back, relaxing and there's no driver... then we come up along some curvy road and i am like "Oh look I better pay attention and drive now." So I climb over to the drivers seat to take over only I don't know how to drive for shit so I plummet into water, off a cliff or into a tree. It's never my life I am worried about... in the dream it is always a brand new car. It's retaded as fuck!

Random Blinking Light....

2006-09-20T02:55:40Z

~~~~Random Blinking Light by Darren Hayes~~~

You're beautiful
In an asymmetric kind of way
You're face is not a cliche
And you complicate

In a helpful kind of messed up way
But you have good intentions
You don't care for shiny things
Don't wear a puzzle ring

You're always listening to a sea-shell
There is a tiny light
That no-one else can see
It shines inside of me
Can you feel it?

And now I
I'm sending out my love
I'm calling on the universe
Now I
I radiate the vibe
Can you feel the frequency in this random blinking light?

I'm beautiful
In an ugly kind of fucked up way
My face is not a cliche
And I complicate

In a disconcering heartfelt way
But I have good intentions
I don't care for shiny things
Don't wear a puzzle ring

I'm always listening to a sea-shell
But you have this tiny light
And no-one else can see
It pulses randomly
And I can feel it

Now I
I'm sending out my love
I'm calling on the universe
Now I
I radiate the vibe

Can you feel the frequency of this random blinking light?
It's so full of love
Beautiful feeling, healing

And I
I radiate the vibe
And I can see this answer to my random blinking light

Making it's way through space and time
Are you recieving signals?
Now I

I radiate both dark and light
Spinning through the universe
Thoughts without a word
Sound I've never heard

And now I
I'm sending out my love
I'm calling on the universe
Now I

I radiate the vibe
Can you feel this frequency of this random blinking light?
It's so full of love
Beautiful feeling, healing

And I
I radiate the vibe
I have found an answer to my random blinking light

Shiny thing
You don't wear a puzzle ring
You're always listening to a sea-shell
There is a thiny light
That no-one else can see

You are, you are
You are, you are
You are pulsing
You radiate

You are, you are
You eminate
You are pulsing

We are, we are
We are pulsing
We're emining

We are, you are
We are, we are...

Iris...

2006-09-19T21:56:01Z

~~~~Iris by Goo Goo Dolls~~~~

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
And you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

This side of me...

2006-09-18T20:35:39Z

~~~~This side of me by Savage Garden~~~~

I want to move in time with you
I want to breathe in rhyme with you
I want to feel the deepest kiss
And I want to know you feel like this

For this one time, one time
Let my body do what it feels
For this one time, one time
Let this fantasy become real
Because I am not afraid to let you see this side of me

I want to feel your hand in mine
And I want to feel that rush in my spine
I want to wear the scent of you
And do all the things you want me to

For this one time, one time
Let my body do what it feels
For this one time, one time
Let this fantasy become real
Because I am not afraid to let you see this side of me

I feel the danger, the separation
I want to take your invitation
This separation it's all around
I need this side of me

I want to move in time with you
I want to breathe in rhyme with you
I want to stitch my clothes in sin
And in the dark
I want to find that door and go within

For this one time, one time
Let my body do what it feels
For this one time, one time
Let this fantasy become real
Because I am not afraid to let you see this side of me
I am not afraid to let you see this side of me

Crawling in the Dark

2006-09-17T23:05:02Z

~~~~Crawling In the Dark by Hoobastank~~~~

I will dedicate
And sacrifice my everything for just a second's worth
Of how my story's ending
And I wish I could know if the directions that I take
And all the choices that I make won't end up all for nothing

Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what i've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer

Help me carry on
Assure me it's ok to use my heart and not my eyes
To navigate the darkness
Will the ending be ever coming suddenly?
Will I ever get to see the ending to my story?

Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what I've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer

So when and how will I know?
How much further do I have to go?
How much longer until I finally know?

Because I'm looking and I just can't see what's in front of me
In front of me

Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what i've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer